listen to the math

australopithicine
rekindle your heart
these hospital machines
are state of the art

shower us in light

i love music
i love listening to it
i love making it
i love recording it
layering layering layering
more sounds
more strings here and here
haunting reverb on this piano to accent the vocals
i want some claps and snaps right over there
make that bridge climb with a building pulsing low end
i want this to be big
i want this to be complex and filled with textures and colors
but then
i love the simplicity of a raw guitar and an aching voice sung over an aging tape recorder
hastily put together, a snapshot in time
with the sound of the street roaring in the back or friends sitting and talking about ()
crying and still yearning for the womb, it's put down
scribbled on napkins, ink on new skin
and we all celebrate the birth
of our anthem

let the lamps shine

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.

1 Timothy 4:12 (NIV)

i want to share it with the world

driving down goldenwest and i'm blasting hillsong
desert song comes on
oh man...
just what i needed
i know i'm filled to be emptied again
nothing lasts forever in this place
He gives and He takes
and i will still bring praise
lately my heart has been going through some wild fluctuations
it's been in the dumps, deprived, and depressed
and it's also been soaring
i want it to soar more often
i've had moments lately where my heart just wants to burst from my chest
something inside me that i just can't hold in
i think it's joy
joy in friends
joy in family
joy in the hope that everything will be ok
joy that no weapon formed against me shall remain
joy that i'm a soldier that fights in an army with a million other voices that cry the same battle cry
joy that i'm not alone
joy that He will provide
overabundant, overwhelming, overflowing
joy

realization

i'm not the person that i was a couple of months ago.
i don't like that. i've been caught up with some things and i've been neglecting others.
i need to re-center myself. where does my allegiance lie?
who is first in my life?
God, be the center of my life
let me fix my eyes on you and never let go
be my foundation and my strength
let me be still, know that you are God
help me to stop struggling and let go
let me be the child that finally gives up and welcomes you to rescue me
help me to stop taking things into my own hands
because i can only do so much
hold me in your arms and comfort me
i need you

she plays it so good, better than i could

Playlist:
Brighten - Early Love EP

"everything you do makes it easy to fall in love with you"
this is such a feel good album
it feels like a sunny day in the park
with a cool summer breeze caressing your cheek
eating an ice cream cone while walking under the trees as the rays break through
being bombarded by memories of childhood
of innocence and better times
your worries melt away as you sit back let the lyrics just flow into your ears
brighten up
it's a new day

sunshine

it was really sunny
i was at school
and i saw her rollerblading
she had a big smile on her face
i was wearing a white shirt
she rolled on over
the cafeteria was serving burritos with tortilla chips
the wrapper was the color purple