realization

i'm not the person that i was a couple of months ago.
i don't like that. i've been caught up with some things and i've been neglecting others.
i need to re-center myself. where does my allegiance lie?
who is first in my life?
God, be the center of my life
let me fix my eyes on you and never let go
be my foundation and my strength
let me be still, know that you are God
help me to stop struggling and let go
let me be the child that finally gives up and welcomes you to rescue me
help me to stop taking things into my own hands
because i can only do so much
hold me in your arms and comfort me
i need you

she plays it so good, better than i could

Playlist:
Brighten - Early Love EP

"everything you do makes it easy to fall in love with you"
this is such a feel good album
it feels like a sunny day in the park
with a cool summer breeze caressing your cheek
eating an ice cream cone while walking under the trees as the rays break through
being bombarded by memories of childhood
of innocence and better times
your worries melt away as you sit back let the lyrics just flow into your ears
brighten up
it's a new day

sunshine

it was really sunny
i was at school
and i saw her rollerblading
she had a big smile on her face
i was wearing a white shirt
she rolled on over
the cafeteria was serving burritos with tortilla chips
the wrapper was the color purple

it's an ancient russian proverb, i doubt it's one that you've heard

Playlist:
Tokyo Police Club - Elephant Shell
Tokyo Police Club - Lesson In Crime EP

i'm really digging that raw sound they have
the bass is just driving with a twinge of distortion and lots of high end
i love the nonchalant vocals that he sings and screams
the delay pedal loves you, overdriven high notes
the guitar adds an aggressive but subtle atmosphere to the entire song
the synths here and there totally add to the songs as a whole

it's like butta

Playlist:
Portugal. The Man - Waiter: "You Vultures!"
Gatsby's American Dream - Self Titled
A Tribe Called Quest - The Low End Theory
City And Colour - Bring Me Your Love
M.I.A. - Arular
Ratatat - Classics

a world of music out there
can't get enough of it

hope

no i am not angry
i am not mad
i am not depressed
i am not weighed down by dread
i do not feel doomed to a life of poor pale egg shell white walls
my canvas is splattered with bright exuberant flavors
random but complementing
chaotic but tranquil
these flavors, these colors, these people
they move me
they rock my soul
down to its very foundation
through them i see
i just hope that through me they see
that there are brighter more exuberant more exquisite strokes of magnificence
than those poor pale egg shell white walls
i want others to see my canvas
inspiration
i want to see their canvases overflowing with color
colors even i could have never imagined
colors that signify
hope

explosion

i screamed
i screamed and i yelled
til my lungs gave out
my heart was on fire
anger was pouring out of my mouth
and drenching the ground
i couldn't see straight
everything was spinning
all i know is
i finally



exploded